This is a record of my personal experience as I practice Steps to Knowledge for the second time. These Steps are contained in the book "Steps to Knowledge: The Book of Inner Knowing."
I also recommend reading "Taking the Steps to Knowledge."
You will find links to these texts in each journal entry below.
Evening in Krasnaya Ushna on July 29, 2015
You are about to begin the final steps in our preparation.
These are not the final steps in your overall approach to Knowledge or in your
utilization and experience of Knowledge. Yet, they are the final steps in this
one great stage of development in which you are now engaged. Therefore, give
yourself to the next section of practice with increased desire and intensity.
Allow Knowledge to direct you in your participation. Allow yourself to be this
powerful, this strong and this involved. Do not think of your past, but realize
the reality of Knowledge in the moment and its great promise for the future.
You are honored who honor the source of your preparation. You are honored this
day as you begin the final steps in this essential stage of your development.
Step 214. I Do
Not Understand Myself.This is not a statement of failure or limitation. It is simply a
statement to liberate you from your own impediments. How can you possibly
understand yourself if Knowledge is not revealing all things to you? How can
you possibly understand the world when Knowledge is not revealing the world to
you? This is pure experience, beyond all concepts and beliefs, for concepts and
beliefs can only follow the experience and attempt to provide a structure where
the experience can arise again. In no way can beliefs, assumptions or ideas
possibly imitate Knowledge itself.
Of course you do not understand yourself or the world, for you only understand
your ideas, and they are not eternal. Therefore, they cannot provide a solid
foundation upon which you must learn to stand. Thus, they can only fail and
deceive you if you rely upon them instead of Knowledge to reveal yourself and
the world to you.
Upon the hour remind yourself that you do not understand yourself. F…
Step 198. Today I Will Be Strong. Be strong
today. Follow the plan that is given to you. Do not hold yourself back or alter
the instructions in any way. There are no shortcuts here; there is only the
direct way. You are given the steps. Follow them. Be strong today. Only your
ideas of yourself speak of weakness. Only your evaluation of yourself says that
you are pathetic, incapable or inadequate. You must have faith in your strength
and exercise this faith to realize your strength.
Upon the hour repeat this statement and attempt to experience it in whatever
circumstance you find yourself. Within your two deeper practice periods today,
use your strength to engage in stillness completely. Allow your mind to be
freed of the chains of its own concepts. Allow your body to be freed of a
tormented mind. In this, your mind and your body will settle into their natural
function, and all things will fall into right order within you. Knowledge will
then find expression through your mind and throug…
264. I Will Learn Of Freedom This Day. Today you will have an
opportunity to learn more about freedom. The step you take today will be very
substantial in giving you a new viewpoint about freedom, about bondage, about
problem solving and about the nature of true advancement.
Today think about your lesson on the hour and think about what freedom is. In
your longer practice periods, devote your mind to thinking about freedom. This
is a very important focal point today. In your longer meditations in
particular, devote your mind entirely to reviewing your ideas about freedom.
What do you think constitutes freedom? What do you think prevents people from
being free? What produces a freedom that is lasting and secure? How can this be
achieved? What will support it in the future? After you spend approximately
thirty minutes thinking about all this in each practice, enter into stillness
and silence. Open yourself to allow Knowledge to speak to you. Abide with your
Teachers there. After you…