Step Two Hundred and Ninety-Four
“I am now a student of Knowledge. I will learn of the meaning and the purpose of Knowledge through my participation. I will follow my participation without attempting to alter its methods or its lessons in any way because I wish to learn. I am a student of Knowledge in a world where Knowledge seems to be absent. For this reason I have been sent here to prepare to give that which Knowledge will wish to give to the world. I am a student of Knowledge. I am secure in my responsibility. In this, I will receive all that I truly desire, for I truly desire to love the world.”
Following this invocation begin your two-week Review. Beginning with the first day in this two-week period, read the lesson for that day and remember your practice. Continue on in this way to cover all the days in this two-week period, and then attempt to have an overview of your life during this practice time. Begin to see what has occurred in your life in this two-week period.
As you gain an overview, you will begin to see the movement of your life. Perhaps this will be subtle at first, but you will soon begin to realize that your life is progressing rapidly and that your values and your experience of yourself are changing. You are changing fundamentally. You are finally becoming yourself. You will realize that war, which still rages in you from time to time, will diminish and become less frequent. Only with a conscious and objective overview can this be recognized, and as it is recognized, it will give you the confidence and the conviction to proceed on, for you will know that you are following your true course and your true destiny. You will know that you are a true student of Knowledge and that you have made the right decision concerning your studenthood.
Practice 294: One long practice period.
This time I definitely feel I have become stronger in Knowledge.
These past two weeks of Steps and this review have reinforced my conviction that Knowledge is the true anchor in my life and being a student of Knowledge will resolve any conflict I may feel. These past two weeks in which Steps addresses not being at war with myself or the world, not being in conflict with myself or others, seeing how the people I may feel have erred against me are actually helping me to reclaim Knowledge have come at the perfect time, at a time when there has been much conflict and turmoil in the world and I have felt drawn to assess my own position and own views, despite all the confusion and conflicting views broiling all over the place. I gained a deeper insight during this time into how Knowledge truly is the solid, unperturbed rock of Truth.
I appreciate how “I am a student of Knowledge in a world where Knowledge seems to be absent.” This makes me feel I am one of the fortunate ones, someone who has recognized the power of Knowledge and is following a curriculum to strengthen it in myself and hence in the world.