Step One Hundred and Twenty-Eight
Only concern that your Knowledge is being violated will emanate from Knowledge, and then only to indicate that you need to reassess your actions and ideas. Knowledge has a self-correcting principle. That is why it is your Inner Guidance. If you are going against your Knowledge, you will be ill at ease with yourself, and this will give rise to anxiety. Much of the fear that you experience moment to moment is simply a matter of your own creation, your own negative imagination. But, then, there is fear that is born of the violation of Knowledge. This is more a discomfort than a fear, for it rarely carries with it any kind of imagery at all, though ideas can come into your mind as a form of warning should you be attempting a behavior or a line of thinking that is dangerous or destructive.
Fear that is born of negative imagination comprises the vast majority of the fear with which you entertain yourself. This you must learn to counteract, for it is an inappropriate use of your mind. Here you create an experience for yourself, experience it and then call it reality. Meanwhile, you have not been present with life at all. You have merely been in fantasy within yourself. Negative imagination drains you emotionally, physically and mentally. It can be escalated to such heights that it can dominate your thinking altogether. For how else can you be separate in the universe except in your own thoughts? You cannot actually be separate from God. You cannot actually be separate from Knowledge. You can only hide in your own thoughts and weave them together to create a separate identity and experience for yourself which, though quite demonstrative, are in fact completely an illusion.
In your two meditation practices today, once again enter into stillness. Today there will be no mental speculation or activity, for the mind will once again come to rest so that it may experience its reality. Let not fear or anxiety dissuade you. Remember, this is your negative imagination only. Only Knowledge can indicate if you are doing something inappropriate, and that will only be in the face of immediate events. You will find that this is quite different from negative imagination and will require a different response from you.
Practice 128: Two 30-minute practice periods.
Today my mind is at ease and I am experiencing the presence of Knowledge and my teachers, which is giving me confidence. I have an important task at hand and I want to give it my best, cull the depths of my mind to produce the best result I can. And I feel full of confidence that I can rise to this task because I am surrounded by the love and support of my Teachers and Knowledge is with me. I know this to be true, since in the past I have frequently doubted my ability to fulfill this task, or even the wisdom of tackling it in the first place, but “Knowledge has a self-correcting principle” and repeatedly returns me to this task and fills me with confidence that I can do it. It is my Inner Guidance. I am truly experiencing this today. I am beginning to distinguish between what is created by my negative imagination and what is coming from Knowledge. It just feels different.
“If you are going against your Knowledge, you will be ill at ease with yourself, and this will give rise to anxiety. … But, then, there is fear that is born of the violation of Knowledge. This is more a discomfort than a fear, for it rarely carries with it any kind of imagery at all…”